Self Doubt

Have you ever had a friend say something about you, and you start to wonder if it's true? Criticism is easy to dismiss from a stranger, because what do you care if they don't like you. My friend said I was self-absorbed. That seriously hurt my feelings because I try to be considerate of other people's feelings, yet I am coming off as self-absorbed. I can't think of one time that I was listening to my friend's problem, and I thought of myself. I do agree that I tend to give advice, but that's only because I want to help you work through whatever is bothering you and to help come up with some solutions, so you don't feel bad about yourself.

Now I'm questioning if I'm self-absorbed, and if I'm a bad friend. I also wonder if she's just upset? I'll have to talk to her because I'm going to think of that. One negative comment from a friend and I doubt who I am. I talk about myself a lot to my therapist, but that's the point of therapy. I'm honestly really hurt and trying to think of how I am self-absorbed. Ouch.

I am just going to have to work through this personal crisis, and I think that spending time with some different friends would be good for the both of us.

I'm also going to start journaling again because there are some things that I need to work through that don't need to go on the internet.

I'm going on an Adventure/On the Road Again!

HI!

I heard back from my study abroad office. Yes, it is official; I will be going abroad for the second time. Now you all must be wondering where I am going, and now I will tell you. I'm going to London! I am so excited because I've always wanted to go to London, and being abroad is an amazing experience. Unlike last time, I will not be going with a close friend and am taking this trip solo. That doesn't mean that I'm not going to know anyone who's going, it just means that I won't have someone to cling to this time around. People tell me that London is overcast, but come on (rolls eyes). I live in Ithaca; one of the rainiest cities in the US, so I'm not that concerned.

I fully intend to travel while I am abroad, and this time I'm going all over Europe. I can't wait to start traveling. 

I know that I want to do some traveling in the summer before my program officially starts, and I'm thinking about going with EF college break, since traveling alone is scary. Right now, all I have to decide is where I want to travel in the summer. I'm looking into Greece and Italy. I also have to speak to my study abroad office, since there is a group flight that leaves for London from NYC. I just need their opinion and advice on going early, and finding a flat.

This is all really exciting, and I will keep you updated as I get closer to my departure date. Now let's talk about some other travel plans.

I am going to Florida this Spring Break! Can anyone guess where I am going? Here's a hint:

Lol, I'm going to Disney World! I literally can't even function from how excited I am. I'm sitting at work grinning like a goofball because I get to go on vacation. This vacation is extra special because I am going with friends. It's going to be a real spring break, except that only two of us are twenty-one, so it will be more of a pseudo-family vacation. Our flight and hotel were less than 400 dollars total, so that was a great price, considering that we're staying for five days. Let be break down how cheap this was. We're staying at a 4-star hotel for five nights for 66 dollars a night each. Our flight is somehow included in that price.

The only thing that is pricey is visiting the parks. That shit is not cheap. I'm going to the parks because I can't go to Orlando and not see the parks. I want to go to Sea World, Universal Studios, and Disney World: Magic Kingdom, Animal Kingdom, and Hollywood Studios. I'm looking at close to 500 dollars there. I'm going to have to budget very carefully. I also actually want to spend time with Sandra, Aliyah, and Jenn, so I'm going to work around their vacation schedule so that we can spend the vacation together. 

So much traveling is about to happen, you guys don't even know. I know that blog posts have been a bit boring, but I'm going traveling now. Soon, you guys can read all about my adventures and what it is like to be a "solo" traveler in Europe. It really is my last hurrah before I graduate. Now, I'm going to apply for scholarships to go abroad.

Thanks for reading, everyone!

Mmkay, Bye

Moving Along

Hello,
Wow! it has been forever since we last spoke. How have you been? I've been pretty decent. I don't actually have much to say, just some general catching up. School and work are going pretty well. I enjoy my classes and making some new friends. I love my new job at Human Resources, and still adore my job at the Library. I am taking 15 credits and working 18-20 hours a week. I feel pretty good about life, in general. I am super busy, but I like it. I am even saving money, which I haven't done in forever. I am still waiting to hear back about the abroad thing, but hopefully I'll hear back before mid-March.

I have a grammar test on Wednesday, and I am super nervous about it. I'm actually at work now, but I plan to study right after for at least two hours. That means that I will be at the library until at least 7. Once I'm done with that, I will go home and clean my room because it is a disaster right now. I've had a pretty busy weekend. I went to the movies on Friday night with some friends. We saw the Wedding Ringer, and I thought it was amazing. I went to Walmart and a party on Saturday. I don't want to talk about it. Now it is Sunday, and I just have tons of work to do, and I am mildly hung over from the Tequila shots my friends and I did last night. Overall, it was a pretty successful weekend, and it was nice to go out and just be a girl in my 20's and not just a student.

It's hard to believe that Valentine's day is this weekend, but it is. That means that Spring Break is just around the corner. I'm not sure what my plans are yet. I'll let you guys know what I decide. As of now, I'm thinking about just saving my money and staying home so that I'll have more money to travel while I am abroad. I'm trying to get to China y'all. Anyway, back to doing homework for me. I'm super tempted just to go home, but I know I wouldn't get anything done then.
Bye everyone!