The Dangers of Doing Nothing

Hi Internet people,
So you guys, I am the biggest procrastinator in the world. It is the last two weeks of the semester, and that means that major projects for every class is coming up. The first one is on Tuesday, and I haven't even done research for it. I have to get around to reading all of the articles I pulled up and sending the important bits to my group members. I also have to submit a proposal for my ethnography, which means that I need to do readings and research. Then, of course, I have to type up my family story (which I just remembered is due tomorrow). I don't even know how I am going to get everything done. I normally don't procrastinate this badly, but I did, and now I will be stressed. I don't mind staying up all night, but I have an interview in the morning, and I would like to sleep.

Many, many college students live off of energy drinks and coffee, but those kinds of drinks make my anxiety flare up badly, so drinking them would be counterproductive and an absolute nightmare. What also really sucks is that all of my work is online, so I'm going to be staring at a computer screen for the next 7 hours. I'm super sensitive to light, to the point that even looking at a dim screen hurts, so that's going to suck. Instead of doing my homework, I chose to write this blog complaining about all of the work I have to do. Lol, I am so lazy. I'm still lucky because I work at the library, so I get paid to sit at a desk, help people and just do my homework. I'm also lucky because my job is to learn, and everything is provided for me by my school, so I don't have to worry about things that people all over the world have to worry about. I' m working on recognizing my own privilege, can you tell?

I guess I better get around to doing something, and stop wasting time complaining about everything that  I have to do.
Bye everyone!

Gaze into my Crystal Ball

Hey everyone,

First, I would like to thank everyone who is reading this and the people who have stuck with this blog even after I was a no show for half a year. As promised, here is a more fun post. So, this is my last day home for Thanksgiving break. I was very iffy about coming home for this break because I don't always get along with my family. I didn't even ahem money to come home, but luckily a friend from school offered me a ride home, so I decided to come home. I got here last Thursday, and it is now Saturday night. I plan to leave very early tomorrow morning. That got pointless and boring very quickly. Anyway, the whole point was that I am glad to be home. For whatever reason, my family decide to give me money. I was not responsible at all, and just went out and spent it. I went to LUSH; I went to Sephora, and I went to Duane Reade.

Now clearly, I was feeling very into beauty products, and the reason this is, is because I got back into Youtube. I have been watching all go my favorite channels again. Every time I saw a product that they loved I just felt like I needed to go and get it. That is not good at all, but it is too late to turn back now. So, rather than tell you everything that I got, I'm just going to tell you about the things that I love.
I'm not going to speak about LUSH products just yet because I want to film them in a haul before I use them. My camera is not with me at the moment, so that's not possible. I will however post about the products that I got and let you know what I thought.

So the first thing that I'm going to tell you about is my NARS sheer glow foundation. I have heard so many fantastic things about it, and they were all true. This foundation matches my skin perfectly. It even matches better than my Rimmel Match Perfection concealer. My skin just looks so flawless when I put it on, and I just adore it. My older sister did buy this for me as a gift, so that didn't cost me anything. I would have normally protested, but I wanted this foundation, so I let her get it for me.

Keeping on the makeup theme, I also bought lipstick, lots and lots of lipstick. I have been obsessed with lipstick because I don't wear makeup on a day to day basis. I just think that lipstick can make it seem like I put some effort into getting dressed that morning. I was going to tell you all about it, but I think I'll just make separate blog posts for the products that I got so that I can give you guys an in-depth review.
So since I decided to do that in the middle of writing this, I will consider this an introduction of posts to come. Rather than continue rambling, I'll just announce the things that I wanted to announce.
Number 1: I got into Tumblr! You guys can go on my Tumblr to find more entertaining snippets of my life, especially if you don't have time or don't want to read the essays that I tend to post. https://www.tumblr.com/blog/superblylazyangel

Dos: I'm thinking about doing Vlogmas. For those of you who don't know what that means, it means that I will post a vlog every single day in December on my channel. I'm on the fence because as you guys know, I am a full-time student, so it could easily get very repetitive and boring. Mhmm I'm still thinking about it. If any of you are still here, please let me know in the comments what you think about this. I will for sure be doing Blogmas.

Tres: I am currently applying to go abroad somewhere else in the Fall of 2015! I will let you guys know if I get in because if I do, that means more posts about my travels.

Number 4: I know I didn't finish blogging about Australia, and I am so sorry for that! I would post about it, but I don't think I could do the experience justice because it was half a year ago. I am, however, working on a video to post, just to show you guys what I did get up to.

I promised that this would be a fun post, but I don't think I did a very good jobs. I'm sorry; I'm just not my normal bubbly self. I will continue to try and make posts better. I hope you enjoyed this anyway.
I'll see you guys next time.

This is not a drill

Hello, Internet people!
You are not hallucinating, and this is not a drill. I am actually posting. I can't believe that it has been six months since I posted anything. I have no excuses other than I couldn't access my blog at all for the past several months. I could not access this page for the life of me. Stupidly enough, once I changed browsers I was able to log in, finally.
I don't actually have much to say, so I will update you on what has been happening. I returned to America in mid-June and spent the entire summer doing nothing. I bought a car in August and have failed my road test 3 times, so I still don't get to drive it.

Sharlene is not impressed. Along with having a beautiful car that I can't drive, I developed anxiety. From September to mid-October I would have panic attacks nearly every single day, and life was just miserable. I was drowning in all of my emotions, and I can say that I fucked up in school. This was devastating because I pride myself on my good grades, but I just couldn't. I didn't do as bad as I thought I did (B's across the board). That did not make things better for me. My anxiety did lessen dramatically, but I became depressed. I sat in my room in the dark every day, and I know that I missed more than half of the classes for two of my courses. On the bright side, I am on track to get an A or high B in science and a high B in my family counseling class. That should help my GPA not be absolute crap at the end of the semester.
I am home on Thanksgiving break now, and I must say that I feel a lot better. I loved spending time with my five-month-old nephew and my nieces. I remember why I am in college, and what I love about being there. I am going to try my absolute best to get my grades to be where they need to be, but there are only two weeks of classes left and then finals. I hope that things go well, but I know that next semester I will do better.
Aside from that, I am entering the second semester of my junior year. I have to go arrange an interview for myself and have no idea where to even start, but I will try. I am also going to begin networking with people on campus to just find out about their lives. I may even try to network with alumni of my college and professors at Cornell University. The life of an upperclassman is odd. I am thinking about my future and what I want to do. I'm looking at my resume and thinking that it's not impressive enough. Just 1.5 years to get my life together.
That is my life at the moment. I know you're thinking that this is the most boring post, but I promise that I will post something much more fun and interesting. I hope that at least entertained you. Until next time everyone. I promise that it will not be six months from now.
Bye my internet lovelies