Bad days and new plans Blogmas Day 2

Hi internet people,

It is the second day of Blogmas. I suffer from Anxiety, and a bunch of other things, so today has sucked. Some days aren't hat bad, but today was awful. I had a group presentation, so I was nervous all night. Because I was so nervous; I ended up staying up all night until about 4. My first class is at 9;25 am, but I wake up at around 8:30 so that I can get there on time. I really love this class, but decided to sleep through it because we were going to watch a movie that I've already seen a few times.

Of course, my alarm didn't go off, so I woke up late, and was 25 minutes late to my 1:10 class. I also love this class, so I was understandably upset. I have never fucked up this badly in a semester, and I have to wonder what the heck is wrong with me. I really don't know what to do, but I honestly feel like I am drowning in my stupidity. I am going to have to commit myself to a very healthy lifestyle, so that means 8 hours of sleep every night, which means a 12 am bedtime, taking my vitamins, and actually eating. Over the past 48 hours, I have eaten one meal, so that's not productive towards making my life better. I just honestly haven't had time to cook, which means that I haven't had time to eat.

I'm not sure what to do, and I wonder if my grades are salvageable. I'm thinking about stopping by my professor's office hours to just speak to them and make sure that they know that something is going on and that I'm not just a lazy bitch.

Speaking of bitch, I have also been prone to get angry very quickly, and when I'm not angry, I am depressed, but I am happy to report that this isn't as often as normal. Instead, I am calm most of the time. I am more motivated to do work,  I just need a way to stop these panic attacks. I'm probably going to stop by Green star and pick up some super foods, and feel good comfort foods. I'm going to clean my room, because my life is a mess, so I don't need my room to reflect that.

I'm also happy to say that I did manage to finish all of my homework on time and that I am almost done with presentations. My final one to do is my science one, and I am much more comfortable with that because I know what I want to present, and I don't have to speak.

Finally, for those of you who don't know, I am obsessed with Supernatural, and I have been since I was 12.There is an all new episode tonight, and I am super pumped. To prepare myself for maximum enjoyment, I am going to do laundry, reorganize my room, do some research, and some networking, get ahead on some homework, so that I don't freak the f out next week and then I can watch supernatural in peace.
P.S it is now snowing